Sometimes she feels as though her heart sinks faster than words can leave her lips. When that shocking news comes to her ears all she can do is flip. Life can be so challenging and sometimes she says 1 word and it can turn the world upside down and around. She tries hard for the things she wants and the things that turn into a mess, aren’t even worth her breath. Where and when can she find happiness, she finds it not in men but in the Lord. He sure gives her so much joy. When she feels sad and alone, she knows that he is there to listen and give a certain love nobody else could ever give. Those times when you feel as every door is closing on you, you know that his door is an open fence that hinges never shut. 

Her heart feels totally capable of holding a smile.

when she looks back to all the times, she has thought of easier escapes all she could do is just cry. 

Her comfort is arms holding her in an embrace of his love. 

One day, she will meet her father in heaven that will call her daughter my love. 

Pondering while laying in bed, listening to my air conditioner crackel to the rhythm of Ray Lamontagne. Light only reflected by lamps in this darken room. My mind feels empty but the center of my heart has a story. The story that may never had an end. I don’t think i can comprehend it to my fingertips. I’m only hearing it beat a new beginning. This story must tell later but soon. Is it possible to feel soulless? First of all i keep thinking it’s spelled wrong but spellcheck must know its stuff. Have you ever felt soullesss or even took the time to look it up? It’s way past bed time, but God only knows this is the best time to come up with good blogs from some inspiration throughout the day. Soulless means lacking of great feeling and feeling pretty much emotionless. I can’t tell my emotion but i feel like my heart has everything to say. It will beat on for time tells all.

Night.  

Today april 8th was ONE DAY WITHOUT SHOES hosted by TOMS shoes. 

It had taught me that walking barefeet isn’t as easy as it sounds. 

We need to be grateful for having the access to shoes while other people don’t. 

Tonight i had realized after taking a shower that we are so lucky to even clean our feet with CLEAN water! When other people around the world don’t. 

This is why i have so much respect for this organization.. because if you buy a pair of shoes it gives a pair to a child in need. There are millions of diseases people can get while not wearing any shoes. 

http://www.onedaywithoutshoes.com/index2.php

I am so proud of myself to be sticking to this and being able to have a part in it. 

:) 

I love working with her :)

Okay, i had thought this was so true for a while ,but i don’t think i understand what love is. I don’t understand why guys date girls for 24 hours and think their in love with her. (I don’t think they know what love is either) I had thought love was a growing process? Why do people say things to make the other happy when they don’t even know how they feel to make them happy? I think the two should learn a lot about them before they should fall in love with them. I hope this is making sense. This is why when people jump into relationships they end up getting hurt in the end because they want that feeling of knowing somebody is there to make them happy all of the time, instead of truly understanding why their hurt. My love is for Christ and will remain for Christ, until God grants me with a love for life. I have given up so much and had been through the grapevine with guys. I am NOT giving up my love for Christ, I will just see who he has in store for me. 

This is my 1st blog in a really long time. I feel like i had lost time wasting it other than writing and updating my life. Which that could be a good thing. So you know those random questions you get from a friend like.. “if you had a million dollars what would you do with it..” or how about “if you could see one person before you die, who would it be?” well here is my question for you. 

There are several issues in this world that we our fortunate enough that we have no worries but that shouldn’t stop us from helping our surroundings. For example, Clean water is a huge necessity in a lot of countries that have bad or little water supply. Or how about war torn down schools, little clothing for bare backs, or Violence that keeps getting horrendous. There are a million things i can pick out other than these. 

So finish this sentence…

“If you were given a bag of $100 dollar bills and you were only to spend it on others, how would you spend it?”

you can comment with your answer :)  

So tonight my friend Tenika got a heart tattooed to her face! Okay your reaction might be what mine was in the beginning. But please let me explain. This heart isn’t that big and it’s very close to her ear. She got this because it reminds her to love other people and to listen to other people more than to speak. I find it very inspiring if you ask me : ) Her first tattoo, and she does it not only for herself but for others she loves around her. This was an epic experience and i’m so glad i got to share that with her.

Sometimes we can start to feel our hearts crushing down or drifting away slowly. You see it with your eyes, hear it with your ears, and know it in your mind. Even if we have a bad day we still need to love those people around us even if they were the cause of the bad day. I would like for you now to step away from the computer and pick up your bible. Flip to Luke 6:35. There are tons of different verses for “Love” but this had really stuck to me. It maybe hard to love your enemies but this is what our father wants us to do, and we must obey. No exception.

zzzzz.. i just wanna sleep.

I have a problem, ever since we made a $1,300 purchase from apple my life has changed in an unusual way.

I DON”T SLEEP!

gah.. i can be called a night owl.. I’m addicted to my 13.5 macbook.

was this a smart investment?

yes and no

yes for this will help me be prepared for college and stuff like that.

no as in Facebook, twitter, stumbleupon, youtube, gmail, google, 8tracks, and of course tumblr.com!

I need help.

well goodnight!

This is not sleep walking.. this is sleep adventuring! haha